I Got Wasted The Other Day

I’m not even going to lie, I was messed up. Like bad. I could hardly walk the next day I was so hungover lmao so what had happened was…

I was supposed to go out with some gal pals, but we rescheduled for another day, cool. I was already getting dressed, so I told my hubby “let’s go out”. He didn’t hesitate and got ready right away. Well…

While I was getting ready, I decided to have some of the Mai Tai pre-mixed drinks. These suckers are 12.5% alcohol.

I had 2.

Then my mom came over, the kids got settled, we left for the bar. Luckily we went to a bar that was 2 minutes away (I probably would have thrown up in my car).

While we were there, we had nothing but Green Tea shots and sipped beer. I don’t know exactly how many shots we had, but I don’t think it was excessive. I know I was twerking and dancing all over the place though.

So we leave that bar and hit up a country club right next to it; we walked across the street. We stayed there for maybe 20 minutes and I was like “We gotta go, I’m over it”. It was also my time of the month, so the fatigue was starting to do me nasty. It was late.

We get home and I’m fine until I take off my shoes and start to get ready for bed. I literally just start throwing up! I felt more sick than anything!

Looking back, I think the hookah that we smoked got me like that. It set me over, but had such a delayed effect. Suddenly, AT HOME, I was drunk. I threw up once that night and once again in the morning. The day after was freaking terrible lol I had zero energy!

I finally ate soup around 4pm that day and haven’t had any alcohol since, haha. I finally feel ready to have a glass of wine tomorrow. We’ll see how it goes!

✨SQUATCH

Float or Stay

A stuck stick in the mud.
Willing but unable to move.
Watching the other branches sway.
Leaves sprouting.

Efforts to be excellent.
Lost to being the best stuck.

Clouds go dark.
Branches break and blow away.
The sky opens, releases refreshing waves.

Stuck no more.
Grounded, instead.
Loose enough to make a choice.
Float or stay.

Float or stay.

Express. Yourself.

Expressing yourself can be hard as fuck sometimes. Especially when you don’t have something necessarily good to say.

But in hindsight, it’s better to at least try. Though the convo may not play out as you thought/planned, hell at least you tried. At least you put forth the effort to let the other person know what was on your mind, on your heart.

And if they can’t appreciate the value in that, then there’s something wrong with them, not you.

Communication is so important on every level of life. Sometimes we get so caught up in the fact that someone is saying something ‘negative’ and we forget to even just appreciate the fact that they’re expressing themselves. Allowing themselves to express how they feel.

And don’t let the fact that previous conversations turned into arguments keep you from listening to them.

Listen to respond, not to react.

I believe people can change, for good or bad, but they can change. So every conversation isn’t going to be like the one before. You or they don’t always have to be the villain in the situation. Maybe they fuckin figured it out and actually just want to tell you something that’s concerning them. They felt safe enough to tell you, so respect that and embrace the connection rather than whatever ‘negativity‘ you feel coming from it. Don’t get upset, just connect and understand them.

Express yourself.
Embrace change.
Believe in love.

A Quick Thank You

I’ve been blogging since the Xanga and Myspace days, but never have I actually experienced the value of sharing thoughts with others, receiving feedback, and being a part of an online community of people who do the same. For once, I feel like there are at least a few people out there who read this thing and even respond! It’s a weird accomplished feeling that I now know thanks to you.

Yea, you. This aint a joke (though it is April Fools Day)!

But seriously, thanks for just having nothing better to do than have a lookypoo at my blog.
I appreciate it.

Happy Belated Easter.
Post about that coming soon…

Vlogging?

Uhh, I think I may try vlogging?

This does NOT mean I will no longer blog here. I merely will be blessing you with my visual presence. May give this a try for a while. A lot of things I have to say are better said instead of typed. Loses the enthusiasm. BECAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO READ THIS ALL DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lolz.  <–gay